They say that you cannot forget your first love. What if that person causes you so much pain, would you still consider reconciliation? Would you reminisce your past? Or would you repress your feelings and pretend that it didn't exists at all?
Being in love is a nice feeling, it makes you weird. You feel boundless; you think that you can do anything and everything as long as your significant other is beside you. You become inspired; you started to see things in different perspective. The words that you utter unconsciously are flowery words that make us imaginative and creative. You feel that time runs so fast when you are together yet so slow when you are apart.
Today I found myself staring on the floor, trying to answer the questions that I raised. After awhile my mind bursted with so much ideas. Suddenly, my heart starts to beat faster and I felt a strange yet familiar ache inside my heart. Then I realized that I'm still not over with my past. Two years had passed but the pain that I’m going through is still the same. I'd be a hypocrite if I tell you that I don't love him anymore. Admit it or not my feelings for him are still the same as last October. How can I stop loving him when he's my first ever serious relationship? How can I stop loving him when in the first place we broke up without a closure? Honestly, I don't even know why we broke up. I tried to asked him but he decided to remain his silence instead he putted me in a tricky state wherein it leads me to wait for his return.
I can't believe that our relationship for almost two years means nothing to him; if our relationship mattered to him he wouldn't easily give up on us. What hurts even more, is knowing that he's not even fighting to keep me. The worst part of it I can't even get mad at him because I love him so much and at the end of the day my love for him prevails.
After all the things that happened to us, we put our past behind our backs and not let that ruined our friendships. I know that I can't live in the past that's why I've decided to move on and not to hold on for something who doesn't want to be held. There are so many things to do and besides I know that our past molds us to become a better person. I know that I should continue with my life, the world doesn't stop there.
As a conclusion, I believe that our first love left us a big hole in our hearts that even after for so long there's still a spot in our hearts that beats for them. There's still a small spot that's hoping that maybe one day they will comeback for us. We fed ourselves with so many assumptions that lead us to hurt ourselves even more. I think that's the reason why our first love is memorable and at the same time disastrous because it leaves us with a big scar. That's why they concluded that our first cut is the deepest.
Being in love is a nice feeling, it makes you weird. You feel boundless; you think that you can do anything and everything as long as your significant other is beside you. You become inspired; you started to see things in different perspective. The words that you utter unconsciously are flowery words that make us imaginative and creative. You feel that time runs so fast when you are together yet so slow when you are apart.
Today I found myself staring on the floor, trying to answer the questions that I raised. After awhile my mind bursted with so much ideas. Suddenly, my heart starts to beat faster and I felt a strange yet familiar ache inside my heart. Then I realized that I'm still not over with my past. Two years had passed but the pain that I’m going through is still the same. I'd be a hypocrite if I tell you that I don't love him anymore. Admit it or not my feelings for him are still the same as last October. How can I stop loving him when he's my first ever serious relationship? How can I stop loving him when in the first place we broke up without a closure? Honestly, I don't even know why we broke up. I tried to asked him but he decided to remain his silence instead he putted me in a tricky state wherein it leads me to wait for his return.
I can't believe that our relationship for almost two years means nothing to him; if our relationship mattered to him he wouldn't easily give up on us. What hurts even more, is knowing that he's not even fighting to keep me. The worst part of it I can't even get mad at him because I love him so much and at the end of the day my love for him prevails.
After all the things that happened to us, we put our past behind our backs and not let that ruined our friendships. I know that I can't live in the past that's why I've decided to move on and not to hold on for something who doesn't want to be held. There are so many things to do and besides I know that our past molds us to become a better person. I know that I should continue with my life, the world doesn't stop there.
As a conclusion, I believe that our first love left us a big hole in our hearts that even after for so long there's still a spot in our hearts that beats for them. There's still a small spot that's hoping that maybe one day they will comeback for us. We fed ourselves with so many assumptions that lead us to hurt ourselves even more. I think that's the reason why our first love is memorable and at the same time disastrous because it leaves us with a big scar. That's why they concluded that our first cut is the deepest.
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